What makes our heart unbelieving and hardened?

April 26, 2025 – Saturday in the Octave of Easter

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When a terrifying and agonizing event happen in our life, it overwhelms our heart and mind. Such a horrible experience brings us into a state of shock, confusion and disbelief. Persons who are recently in a traumatizing experience may manifest anxiety and fear and other spontaneous strong emotional outbursts. There may be flashbacks of that terrifying event and thus make the person to withdraw and isolate from others.

To protect oneself, a possible coping is to shut down that memory of the past. Hence, it makes the heart unbelieving and hardened towards others.

Such human experience was the very state that the disciples of Jesus went through. They were in a state of shock and disbelief after the horrible event that happened to Jesus. And so, they retreated and hid themselves because of fear. They locked themselves in a room to protect themselves. Yet, when Jesus fulfilled his promise to be with them through the gift of his resurrection, their hearts remained closed.

Indeed, they could not believe it. They could not even accept what has been reported by Mary Magdalene. They would not even accept the testimony of the two disciples who went to Emmaus and reported that the Lord appeared to them.

The disciples must have been filled with guilt. They were ashamed for fleeing and hiding when Jesus was arrested, tortured, and killed. Peter denied Jesus who earlier said he won’t. The very experience and those days were just disheartening. They too must have felt that there was no more hope for them. Their courage was gone. Their spirits dampened. These were devastating, and so, they became unbelieving and their hearts hardened.

The terrible death of Jesus, killed in the most shameful and painful way, was beyond their expectation. Yet, it happened. The Lord told them he would suffer and die. He also told them he would be raised on the third day. Despite this, they were all unprepared.

And when Jesus was raised and appeared to other disciples, their minds and hearts were closed because they were too afraid. They stayed in their grief and sorrow, nursing their fear and shame.

However, the Lord appeared to them all and confronted them. As the Gospel of Mark told us, “Jesus appeared to them and rebuked them for their unbelief and hardness of heart.” Yes, the Lord confronted and challenged them by rebuking them. It was the Lord’s way of making them wake up and move forward. They have been staying in that disposition and attitude that was already unhealthy and unhelpful for them and for others.

We too could find ourselves having such kind of disposition and attitude. When we stay too long in our grief, we nurture our own emotional wounds. Feeding our fears with anxiety further escalates the issue. Such dispositions of the heart and mind make us more submerged into fear and anxiety, leading into sin and darkness.

We remind ourselves, it is okay to grieve. It is okay to be afraid after a painful experience. It is okay to feel down and discouraged after a failure. It is okay to feel lonely and alone. It is okay to be sad and not feeling okay.

However, when we are already staying too much in these human emotions and even reinforcing these emotions with our unhealthy coping and nursing them. Then, that is not okay. It is not alright. These attitudes would lead us farther from others. We would move even farther from our true selves and the grace of God.

Today, the Risen Jesus, through the gift of His Resurrection, we are called to confront ourselves, to confront our friends and one another when we are going in those unhealthy and life-sucking state of life. Let us allow the grace of the resurrection to give us hope, courage and a new way of looking at things and looking at our life.

We move forward and move on, knowing that the grace of God is with us, and that the presence of Jesus assures us that there is life, and that there is hope, always. Hinaut pa.